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In case, ANYONE actually liked this, here it is in BlueSky format:
2025-05-28 04:59:54.048 / 3lq7ganzsk32a
I want to extend a heart-warmed thank you to everyone who expressed support for me and what I have to say.
It means a great deal to me that there are people who believe in what I'm doing, even if they don't always agree with every aspect of it.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.049 / 3lq7ganzxgd2a
I'm not sure if people realize how extraordinary it is for me to find people that don't automatically agree with the things people I talk about might say; that I'm not immediately taken as 'unhinged,' 'obsessed,' 'sociopathic,' 'manic,' …
2025-05-28 04:59:54.050 / 3lq7ganzxge2a
writing 'word salad,' 'incomprehensible,' a 'buzzsaw of lunacy,' a 'stalker,' 'misogynist,' 'bigot/transphobic,' 'schizo,' and finally 'anti-social.'
2025-05-28 04:59:54.051 / 3lq7ganzyfm2a
These are the rare people who can see past those superficial trappings to see who I truly am and what truth I *do* have to share, even if it's uncomfortable to hear sometimes.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.052 / 3lq7ganzyfn2a
Who believe me when I tell them who I am: sometimes contrarian, but always wanting the best and most valuable in life, honesty, responsibility, freedom, and affection.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.053 / 3lq7ganzyfo2a
Everything I do is out of love for the truth and, thus, for people as they are. I adore 'the truth' and what is as it is. I learned this from my parents, particularly my father, who never budged an inch from it, even if it was harsh. Especially when it was harsh.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.054 / 3lq7ganzzew2a
And, from my viewpoint, the truth is not whatever I decide. It is not some arbitrary Pygmalion delusion that I can hold on to out of desperation. It is simply what it is, and to be accepted for that. Doing so will teach you everything about being. It offers everything you are.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.055 / 3lq7ganzzex2a
I do not cover myself with a fursuit to hide. I am the fursuit, and the fursuit is me. I do not write to deflect; I am the words, and the words are me. I do not argue to shield myself, as I am the argument, and the argument is me. I do not love to escape, for I am the love, and the love is me.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.056 / 3lq7ganzzey2a
When we are rejected by others, it has very little to do with them in the end, as they are like immobile pillars that just are. We cannot change them; only they can. It has everything to do with who we are or, more precisely, who we are trying to be.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.057 / 3lq7gao22ea2a
A rejection tells us that we are not what the other person is looking for, what they want us to be, and thus, what we are trying to be. Something I've always known is that I do not need to be anyone other than who I am and who I genuinely want to be.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.058 / 3lq7gao22eb2a
Sometimes, I want to be something, but I eventually discover that I don't. It wasn't as good as I thought. This situation has allowed me to gain a deeper appreciation for the concept of rejection and refine it further. I have found myself finally rejecting a few others.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.059 / 3lq7gao22ec2a
Some of these are people I never thought of in that way before, and some are people I now see in a new light. All of them wanted me to be something I'm not, or, if not so, then at the least, I've ended up rejecting the person I would have had to be.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.060 / 3lq7gao22ed2a
I do this now because every rejection of me by others is a sign that I'm acting on a rejection of myself. I'm trying to be something I clearly am not, even if I thought I was. And that's very informative. It's incredibly informative.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.061 / 3lq7gao22ee2a
I haven't hated myself for quite a while, but I still hated the way the world seemed hellbent on interfacing with me. For quite a while, I have been fully satisfied, rather than selectively so, with who I am. The contrast from before was that I no longer believed any comparison was fruitful.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.062 / 3lq7gao22ef2a
But, I've discovered that I hadn't entirely accepted myself. Whether it was something inward, such as my struggle to fully realize my goals,
2025-05-28 04:59:54.063 / 3lq7gao22eg2a
or an extension outward, such as people not affording me any sense of decency, good faith, the benefit of the doubt, goodwill, or humanity (but always demanding it from me), I was rejecting my place in the world.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.064 / 3lq7gao22eh2a
It is not to be determined by others. It is not for me to decide. It is just what it is. Not higher, nor lower, not superior, nor inferior, not larger, nor smaller, not good, nor evil, just, wherever I go, there always will I be.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.065 / 3lq7gao22ei2a
This is the part where I suspect many might be looking for me to resign myself to whatever this eye-rolling enlightenment might be (I mean, I'm sure everyone is *already* aware of all of it; I'm just a sociopath) and stop doing what I've been doing.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.066 / 3lq7gao22ej2a
That I've seen the error of my ways, or 'the mistake,' I made. I'm now 'rehinged' to the appropriate machinery of society.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.067 / 3lq7gao22ek2a
And that, with this new 'love of everything' (groan), I'll stop doing the horrible thing I've been doing and stop being the terrible person I've been being.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.068 / 3lq7gao22el2a
Now, I can be what I'm supposed to be like everyone was trying to show me, because my hatred, self-loathing, and vengeance blinded me to the goodness of the world.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.069 / 3lq7gao23dt2a
Now I can 'move on,' as almost everyone close to me constantly advised me to do every time I brought up any of this. Now, I can finally focus on the positive aspects of life, such as what they're interested in, for my own benefit.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.070 / 3lq7gao23du2a
I'm ready to accept all the wonderful things they always dreamed for me.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.071 / 3lq7gao23dv2a
And that saccharine accomplish-nothing trance-like delusion of conformity could happen, I guess, but… unfortunately… or not, I stopped talking to those people for good. No more.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.072 / 3lq7gao23dw2a
The uncomfortable reality that most people don't want to face is that life isn't that brand of Disney-fueled psychoconsumerist nightmare where there is no conflict, only peace, comfort, ramen noodles, and Netflix and chill. At least, it's a nightmare to me.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.073 / 3lq7gao23dx2a
There will always be conflict. Conflict is necessary. Surviving is a conflict between the processes of your body and your environment. Accomplishment is a conflict between your desires and the presented obstacles, as long as the obstacle never becomes the way.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.074 / 3lq7gao23dy2a
Action is a conflict between what was and what's about to be. Conflict is good.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.075 / 3lq7gao23dz2a
And because it's good, and because it's life, that's where I am. That's where I've always been. I am not here to instigate needless conflict, unnecessary suffering, or hurt feelings for my own entertainment (I never was) or, more heinously, for money.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.076 / 3lq7gao24db2a
I don't care about either of those. I am here to point out what isn't working, what isn't effective, what trespasses upon my brilliance (and others) as a human, and what I see can be done about it.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.077 / 3lq7gao24dc2a
I've written before that I've already discovered the purpose of my life, my will, the wyrd of my existence. I'm not sure I can write it here, in this tiny space and time, but what I just expressed is part of it.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.078 / 3lq7gao24dd2a
Despite my obsessive and 'unhinged' ramblings on a terrible platform in an awful format, I've already figured out a lot. Despite this, as you can see, there is always room for refinement.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.079 / 3lq7gao24de2a
Once you become enlightened, as the story goes, you get up to haul the water and chop the wood. I used to do that daily, every fall and winter of every year when I was growing up, and though I may not be enlightened, I've always understood that.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.080 / 3lq7gao24df2a
It may not seem wondrous and inspiring, but it is because that's where the magick is.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.081 / 3lq7gao24dg2a
I don't expect anyone to listen to me or take action. And so, I don't demand it. Regarding my teleology (the reason I exist), it doesn't matter whether anyone else does or doesn't. I know this. That's why I'm never that concerned about it.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.082 / 3lq7gao24dh2a
It doesn't matter if I cause change or if everything stays the same. It doesn't matter if I am successful in others' eyes or if I expire in total obscurity.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.083 / 3lq7gao24di2a
None of that matters any more than whether I have offspring or love 7-11's raspberry cheesecake ice cream (which I do). All that matters is that it is done.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.084 / 3lq7gao25cq2a
And so I do it.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.085 / 3lq7gao25cr2a
When I write something, I mean it. When I say something, I mean it. When I do something, I mean it. When I apologize, I mean it. I don't need to prove anything about myself to anyone, but I ought to share it with people so they know.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.086 / 3lq7gao25cs2a
So I do. It is their responsibility to recognize the truth and believe it, not mine.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.087 / 3lq7gao25ct2a
They are responsible for holding fast to their values, enforcing their boundaries, and being accountable for themselves, not the rest of us.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.088 / 3lq7gao25cu2a
We are not each other's parents or guardians, and our friends are not little wards to be guided magnanimously toward a 'great life' with a smattering of online articles or hollow demands for compliance, complete with detailed plans on being a good person.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.089 / 3lq7gao25cv2a
I do not wear the crown fashioned by liars. My friends forge it from shame and call it pride—place it between my ears and tell me to smile while I break, to find strength in silence.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.090 / 3lq7gao25cw2a
But, I don't bedazzle others with mythic jewels nor gild myself with honor so that they can pretend things are fine. Their feelings will not matter. The storm outside is becoming enraged. It is known as Truth.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.091 / 3lq7gao25cx2a
Rather than rule from a throne of veneer, forever deferring judgment, I will stand before it, bareheaded and naked. The hour will strike all the same. Reality doesn't negotiate—only renders. And, while alive, they won't remain.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.092 / 3lq7gao25cy2a
I refuse to whisper while the world burns. I'll wear no muzzle fashioned by fear and stitched by power. I will not be broken, nor apologize, for naming the beast. I will not suffer for my virtue; evil rises only when virtue sleeps.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.093 / 3lq7gao25cz2a
Without realizing what I was doing, but in line with my nature, I pulled back the curtains on Poppy's macabre circus. With one simple question, I revealed a continuously imploding house of cards.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.094 / 3lq7gao26cb2a
A virtual sanctuary where healing is sold as masquerade night at the sex club. Indulgence wears the mask of grace, and Poppy, the architect, surveys from the shadows, ready to grind truth into dust beneath the altar of desire in sacrifice.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.095 / 3lq7gao26cc2a
Despite voicing oblique concerns, I hadn't realized that my closest friend had descended into this dark, random rabbit hole. Had I known, the concerns would have been shouts of danger. But now I know they would have gone unheeded. Some must indulge to realize what selfishness isn't.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.096 / 3lq7gao26cd2a
And now, having endangered my friend's standing, placing her in the cross-hairs of the Red Queen's gaze, I reaped their always-bestowed rewards: lies, stigma, and rumor. I was all they buried—so no one dared look too closely at the rot beneath their smiles.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.097 / 3lq7gao26ce2a
As if I had never danced this well-tread dance—I was expected to grant endless goodwill, to approach with a fount of bottomless doubtful benefits, and to offer infinite chances while receiving none in return.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.098 / 3lq7gao26cf2a
But I persisted: empathy for what?
2025-05-28 04:59:54.099 / 3lq7gao26cg2a
I knew what the answer would have to be. I had to know if these authority figures were aware or if this was madness. For eight months, the answer was given, conjuring a grotesque phantasmagoria.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.100 / 3lq7gao26ch2a
And now, I can already hear the somnambulant refrain, "What is this teenage edgelord goth shit? Who does he think he is? You're not that important, dude; calm down, touch grass, get laid." That's how it goes, and that's how it will always be.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.101 / 3lq7gao27bp2a
I've always puzzled over why people see it all on screens but act like it never happens or shouldn't happen. Where do they think it all comes from? Viacom?
2025-05-28 04:59:54.102 / 3lq7gao27bq2a
The moral is the answer to the question, and it's rejection. Poppy, Liana, and so many others ask for empathy for every failing, every weakness, and every frailty that they continuously indulge in 'to heal,' while never truly healing, …
2025-05-28 04:59:54.103 / 3lq7gao27br2a
and for everything over which someone might feel guilt if they so chose to indulge as well. Who would want to say no?
2025-05-28 04:59:54.104 / 3lq7gao27bs2a
Who would dare to say no? Don't we all live in glass houses?
2025-05-28 04:59:54.105 / 3lq7gao27bt2a
They ask for unconditional forgiveness, for you to relinquish boundaries and only appease their self-centered demands, and for others to continuously prop up their self-image for them. They can't do it. They won't do it.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.106 / 3lq7gao27bu2a
They prey on our inner struggles, hoping we'll look around, feel ashamed for existing, guilty for something, not wanting to hurt anyone, and project all of the forgiveness we might wish to receive onto them, but for what?
2025-05-28 04:59:54.107 / 3lq7gao27bv2a
What have we really done? If it's nothing, then they'll invent something for us to empathize over, ensnaring us with guilt, shame, and public derision.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.108 / 3lq7gao27bw2a
They do whatever they want, always too small, too fragile, too endangered, too weak, too scattered, and too unbalanced to actually take it, to withstand any consequences, to have to deal with any retribution, any retaliation, any justice, …
2025-05-28 04:59:54.109 / 3lq7gao27bx2a
and leave it up to the much more capable of suffering them. They drop it at your feet, or mine, or any random person, even if they suffer as well. It doesn't matter because none of that's true in the first place. This is the facade.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.110 / 3lq7gao2ab72a
And if you buy it, you take it all on, ensuring they are okay, remain stable, comfortable, and happy, making sure that, whatever reckless decision or behavior they exhibit, everything turns out well enough despite a few unfortunate sacrifices.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.111 / 3lq7gao2aba2a
You are the life-colleague that picks up the slack because they can't ever get their life together.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.112 / 3lq7gao2abb2a
Their life will never be together.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.113 / 3lq7gao2abc2a
It doesn't have to be as long as you're around.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.114 / 3lq7gao2abd2a
They jab at, lie about, deceive, double-speak, and flail around in great exaggerations, all while expecting you to not respond in kind and be the better person.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.115 / 3lq7gao2abe2a
You wouldn't want to make the situation worse for everyone, would you? Like I do? You wouldn't want to be the one responsible for anything breaking down… right?
2025-05-28 04:59:54.116 / 3lq7gao2abf2a
This is for what we must have empathy and understanding. We must unquestioningly accommodate the 'less fortunate among us.' If we don't, we are a bad person, a 'sociopath next door.'
2025-05-28 04:59:54.117 / 3lq7gao2abg2a
That's the answer.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.118 / 3lq7gao2abh2a
Now, the rejection.
2025-05-28 04:59:54.119 / 3lq7gao2bap2a
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2025-05-29 01:35:11.521 / 3lqblbjz2fd2w
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2025-05-29 01:35:11.523 / 3lqblc4dkx32w
Why does this keep happening?
2025-05-29 01:46:57.053 / 3lqblwkson32w
It appears the video is cut in a strange fashion. It's seems cut after "beyond a shadow of a doubt." It also looks like it's cut after she says, "Do you want to know about my childhood sexual trauma?" and before "I can tell you that."
2025-05-29 02:02:47.510 / 3lqbmsvad2c2o
Having experienced out of context accusations myself, I'm not going to quote Poppy as saying these words in this sequence.
2025-05-29 02:02:47.511 / 3lqbmsvfzo22o
If it's cut at the second point, it's cut to appear as if she's saying she "reduplicated it and did it to someone else," about what she *just* said in the presumably edited video. That's not fair to anyone.
2025-05-29 02:02:47.512 / 3lqbmsvfzo32o
Was it smart for Poppy to make such a video and set herself up for this? Not any more smart than me writing that paragraph. However, until someone shows the original, longer, and uncut (lol) version, then this can't be a quote. Like I said, that wouldn't be fair to anyone.
2025-05-29 02:02:47.513 / 3lqbmsvg2nd2o
The larger point is, for all the attacking, vilification, stalking, and harassment Poppy allegedly receives (since harassment appears to truly be in the eye of the beholder these days), this type of thing just. keeps. happening.
2025-05-29 02:02:47.514 / 3lqbmsvg2ne2o
For being so terrible, horrible, no-good, anti-social, very bad harasser, I'm talked about and 'attacked' by wacky antics very very little these days.
2025-05-29 02:02:47.515 / 3lqbmsvg3mm2o
Poppy is allegedly a fine person with a bad vibe that just wants to get along in life, and presumably, 'better' in behavior and responsibility than I.
And yet…
2025-05-29 02:02:47.516 / 3lqbmsvg3mn2o
Consider that all of her online associates, it seems, have a huge undercurrent of "proshipping" (a bizarre unnecessary stance that acts as a shield for their real-life ties and behaviors),
2025-05-29 02:02:47.517 / 3lqbmsvg3mo2o
even chastising people for looking down on people who indulge in pedophilia via fantasy (and lifestyle humor posts), and then, this. keeps. happening.
2025-05-29 02:02:47.518 / 3lqbmsvg3mp2o
It's just… how long does it go on before someone somewhere within the inner workings goes, "wait…" like NightWyld/DuskNoir, who now seems to somewhat share my opinion on pro-/anti-shipping (that it's nonsense).
2025-05-29 02:02:47.519 / 3lqbmsvg3mq2o
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