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I don’t send e-mails or fill out contact forms to anyone. I have stalkers, and I revealed who one of them is, repeatedly, to get them to leave me alone and be held accountable. I was successful and they left me alone, but now they must discredit me by running around muddying it all up.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.879 / 3llhtxjvme22q
Stop taking the bait.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.880 / 3llhtxjw7v22q
Others have removed any mention of me anywhere they’re able or have stopped talking about me because I have a tendency to pull back the curtain and reveal the truth.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.881 / 3llhtxjwauc2q
While others have decided that it’s my fault if they continue to “engage” with me, sending me warnings (it “isn’t a threat” because they say so) and potential death threats. They could just stop interacting with me, ignore me, block me, move on …
2025-03-28 22:20:39.882 / 3llhtxjwbtk2q
while I tell the world what they did and subsequently hurt their feelings. I clearly have forgotten that it makes them feel weird and it’s a time for empathy.
But no one has ever answered my question. Empathy for what?
For this?
2025-03-28 22:20:39.883 / 3llhtxjwds22q
Out of one side of their mouths people lament it’s an unfair world that people can hide behind total anonymity, while out of the other side they defend that total anonymity because I, their dastardly antagonist they must fake pity, am the one piercing it.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.884 / 3llhtxjwfqk2q
This is a deeply contradictory unserious both-sides’ing morally centrist position everyone loves, unless it’s the villain doing it.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.885 / 3llhtxjwgps2q
I’m a supervillain, because I don’t do it at all. I don’t waffle around, making zero points in self-important fancy language hoping everyone mistakes it for empathy and understanding.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.886 / 3llhtxjwhp22q
That’s precisely what makes me the supervillain. I make no “space” for others’ excuses and shitty behavior, and that scares people, frankly, even though it shouldn’t.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.887 / 3llhtxjwjnk2q
I do that as a generosity. I could just ignore them and let them continue not being held accountable for the stupid harmful things they do and let them self-destruct in front of a trolling audience. Whatever.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.888 / 3llhtxjwkms2q
And the things I say? Unlike the trolls, who need to feel self-righteous and important like they’re fulfilling some societal function of normative correction, I don’t just ramble on about things that I don’t really know or don’t involve me.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.889 / 3llhtxjwlm22q
I talk about what others have involved me in which I have a right to do like everyone else involved.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.890 / 3llhtxjwmlc2q
I keep saying this, but nobody seems to have the *actual* empathy, that I do exhibit consistently, to pay attention and take me seriously. These are the results, but not by my hand.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.891 / 3llhtxjwnkk2q
I didn’t rush to the horrible spotlight of a bunch of trolls. Why would I do that? There are *way* better things I can do to be famous. I offer a genuine value, which I’m guessing is why I’m so sought after, impersonated, maligned, or leeched off of for others’ benefit.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.892 / 3llhtxjwpj22q
This is all by others’ hands, their behavior, and how they’ve trained others to treat them. This is all the results of vague posting, not naming who you’re talking about as a kindness, people thinking they’re above me and I am to be pitied, self-indulgence, self-victimization,
2025-03-28 22:20:39.893 / 3llhtxjwqic2q
rumors and speculations people think are funny, and essentially, a highly-corporatist psycho-consumerist screen driven dystopian monetized drama-industry that incentivizes this behavior. Stop making it profitable and it will go away.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.894 / 3llhtxjwrhk2q
All I’ve done is dare to, in so many words, point it out and lay it bare by asking simple questions. Better than what? Empathy for what?
2025-03-28 22:20:39.895 / 3llhtxjwsgs2q
These are apparently extremely dangerous questions that aren’t to be asked. They’re too deeply disturbing, but not to me. All I’ve seen so far is people self-destruct in front of me and blame me for their own immolation. And yet, I’m not really the victim, they are, of themselves.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.896 / 3llhtxjwtg22q
All I’ve ever been interested in doing is telling the truth about me and what happened that continues to be misrepresented to an outrageous degree. If *no one* had ever bothered to talk about me in such a way, none of this would’ve ever happened. I’d have no reason to care.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.897 / 3llhtxjwufc2q
I have nothing to gain really from doing any of this but the satisfaction of publishing my own side of the story and getting the facts out there. That’s it. I don’t expect anyone to agree with me or take sympathy on me or get famous. Why would I after I’ve seen how everyone continues to treat me?
2025-03-28 22:20:39.898 / 3llhtxjwvek2q
Oh no, I lost a friend. Oh no, someone is disappointed. Oh no, someone disagrees with me. Oh no, people think I’m evil. Oh no, someone said I’m crazy.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.899 / 3llhtxjwwds2q
So what? People have been doing that my whole life. It doesn’t make me special. My mental illness doesn’t make me special or a victim or equity-owed by a society I’m not part of. I’ve never said this. But, no one reads what I write. They read what they want me to write.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.900 / 3llhtxjwxd22q
It makes no sense for me to e-mail people telling them what I’ve already posted publicly. I do all of this in public, that’s the reward. Privacy in this crap is poison. It only hurts me.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.901 / 3llhtxjwzbk2q
I loathe maliciousness, which I suppose is also part of the problem. I don’t see malicious rationalizing antiheroes and think, “That could be me.” I don’t see abusive people suffering consequences, crying for mercy, and see myself in them at all.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.902 / 3llhtxjx2as2q
I’ve never believed in original sin, an inherent evil or any inherent moral value to existence or people’s natures, that I’m guilty for living, that I must castigate myself for the horror of being selfish… none of that. Ever.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.903 / 3llhtxjx2at2q
I have too much self-respect, and more importantly, I’m not malicious. I don’t intentionally behave maliciously. There’s shears room to learn and grow.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.904 / 3llhtxjx3a32q
In fact I’ve already written all about this. Really! Look for it and you’ll find it. I’ve hidden nothing about myself. I’m not ashamed of what I believe or what I do. I have no reason to be.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.905 / 3llhtxjx47d2q
It grosses me the fuck out that someone is doing this. I completely understand someone might believe it’s me doing it.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.906 / 3llhtxjx56l2q
What’s less understandable is for them to not believe me when I say I didn’t because the message said what they wanted to hear all along. I don’t understand this at all.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.907 / 3llhtxjx65t2q
I learned early on that indulging in what I want to hear just brings heartache and pain and makes me act like an even bigger asshole.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.908 / 3llhtxjx7532q
Yes, a bigger one. I’m measured. I’ve learned temperance. I’m holding back.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.909 / 3llhtxjxa4d2q
It doesn’t make psychological sense for someone to express guilt after they’ve spent decades saying they don’t do guilt (and they clearly don’t which seems to be part of the problem).
2025-03-28 22:20:39.910 / 3llhtxjxa4e2q
And the fact that *THAT* is the part that makes any of these bizarre messages believable is just, wow, use your brains. I’m not going to suddenly be exactly who you want me to be. I’m sorry what? It’s that simple. You don’t magically know the truth about me from words you read into on a screen.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.911 / 3llhtxjxd242q
If I wanted to say I’m sorry in this situation, I would, publicly. I’m not sorry. Sorry for what?
2025-03-28 22:20:39.912 / 3llhtxjxdze2q
I’m not unaccountable. I simply don’t accept unearned guilt and shame for hurt I didn’t cause. That’s the real statement being made. No one ever gives me a reason to do so. They just accuse and never back it up.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.913 / 3llhtxjxeym2q
They just exclaim in horror that I simply must, and that I shouldn’t even ask why! Sounds like an abuse of morality to me.
No thanks. Not interested. I actually have boundaries.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.914 / 3llhtxjxeyn2q
I beg people to criticize me, to tell me the problems they have with me, to be honest about their hatred of me, so I know where I stand and can possibly work it out. If they don’t, that’s on them.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.915 / 3llhtxjxfxv2q
If you want to see me held accountable for my assholery, then hold me accountable. Name me, blast me, point me out, report me, but do so honestly, please.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.916 / 3llhtxjxgx52q
Please read this if you *actually* care about me:
One way to show you genuinely care about me would be to post, in great detail, these messages you’re receiving. Kiwi Farms did, so you can too. Shining light on this type of abuse always serves to diminish it.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.917 / 3llhtxjxhwf2q
I *want* to find out who it is. I think I know, but, I *need* all the evidence I can get. I really do. Say whatever you want about it, even that you *think* it’s from me (it isn’t). I won’t see it as an attack. I don’t care at this point.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.918 / 3llhtxjxhwg2q
I can find out who it is, with authorities if I need to. Please help me put an end to this abuse of the entire situation. I don’t want this.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.919 / 3llhtxjxivo2q
And it is very believable. The person I think is doing this said once that I was convenient because then he didn’t have to push people to have his little death matches and could just sit back and watch. I have the screenshot. Stop entertaining him.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.920 / 3llhtxjxjuw2q
You think my responses haven’t angered a deeply disturbed sociopath somewhere? Really? After my writing has angered theoretically healthy people so badly they send me public potential death threats? Really?
2025-03-28 22:20:39.921 / 3llhtxjxku62q
However, I do not need to stop posting my thoughts. You all’s reactions are not my problem. Own them. I am not going to be intimidated by someone who can copy, paste, and push a button.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.922 / 3llhtxjxku72q
I’m responsible for me. I’m not going to accept responsibility for the actions of criminals like everyone else. I’m not going to take on the unfortunate suffering of their victims like everyone else does for glowing accolades. It is unnecessary.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.923 / 3llhtxjxlth2q
You can help protect yourself and help improve this situation by posting everything publicly. Post these nastygram’s and threats. I’m not ashamed because I didn’t send them. Even the tiniest detail helps me figure it out. I’ll have a form on my blog to do it.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.924 / 3llhtxjxmsp2q
Also, enable security measures on your forms. Enable tracking, IP address detection, browser detection, identity validation, and other security protocols. Save and post the raw source of every e-mail. Screenshots of every account and every DM.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.925 / 3llhtxjxnrx2q
We live in an age of AI and it’s wild out there right now, but I’m not the only one that has to do shit.
If you can just stop and think about me as an actual person that might be experiencing an actual threat to safety, please do all of this for everyone involved.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.926 / 3llhtxjxnry2q
It is not necessary for you to like me or agree with me to act justly and be decent.
Please don’t add to the victimization. You make the choice. You will be held accountable too.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.927 / 3llhtxjxora2q
Btw, I don’t have three college degrees (my partner does), I’m not paranoid, no one is ruining my life, I couldn’t be more fulfilled in my relationship, and my apartment is finally clean. This is just what I do, and it’s what I’ve always done.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.928 / 3llhtxjxpqi2q
I’m not the one trying to escape accountability; I welcome it.
2025-03-28 22:20:39.929 / 3llhtxjxqpq2q
If I’m suddenly hitting every one of your suspicions and admitting everything you believed to be true about me, it’s not me. It’s someone using your confirmation bias against you.
2025-03-28 22:43:34.558 / 3llhvaivgei2q
NO ONE IN THIS SITUATION KNOWS EVERYTHING ABOUT ME. THEY HAVE NOT FIGURED ME OUT.
2025-03-28 22:43:34.559 / 3llhvaj33yy2q
Not one person has nailed it on the head, not @hellscapewanderer.bsky.social, @ladydiabolique.bsky.social, and especially not @redlianak.bsky.social. Every time they open their mouths about me they get it wrong. Every. Single. Time.
2025-03-28 22:43:34.560 / 3llhvaj37vy2q
Professionals have been at this for years, and they don’t got it 100%. My own mother doesn’t have it 100%. Nobody does. I’m constantly surprising people. I’m strange.
2025-03-28 22:43:34.561 / 3llhvajbg5q2q
Dr. Nagel of Mountaincrest Behavioral was so impressed with me, my communication skills, my honesty, my insight, and my strangeness he said I was the perfect most fascinating patient the type psychiatrists dream to get in their whole careers.
2025-03-28 22:43:34.562 / 3llhvajbh4y2q
You’re not going to magically do it, so if someone pretending to be me acts like you were right all along it’s an appeal to your own ignorant arrogance. Grow up.
You don’t know me.
2025-03-28 22:43:34.563 / 3llhvajbj3i2q
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