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Here are all the people who subscribe to this list: bsky.app/profile/did:… which wrongfully lumps me in with individuals who purportedly "have continued to act in an abhorrent fashion towards myself, partners, and loved ones. …
2025-03-25 06:25:55.929 / 3ll6n7lchjs2c
Due to the way social media fucntions [sic], the list is BROAD. It includes the people leading the campaigns, people connected to them, and anyone harassing people for other reasons, and baeddelists."
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2025-03-25 06:25:55.930 / 3ll6n7nlqb22c
I don't know about abhorrent, as I've already addressed those (I'll be reposting them), 'cause that's in the eye of the beholder, however… I definitely have not led any campaigns, I'm not connected in any positive fashion to anyone who has led a campaign…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.931 / 3ll6n7nlrac2c
(Indeed a small campaign by one person, Giancarlo Vanzzini giancarlovanzzini.com, has been attempted against me, but no one cared enough to join.
2025-03-25 06:25:55.932 / 3ll6n7nls7k2c
Giancarlo Vanzzini is most famous for his LGBTQ+ young adult novel Outcast now available on Amazon www.amazon.com/stores/GIANC….
2025-03-25 06:25:55.933 / 3ll6n7ow2qs2c
He's also Shaneequa on Kiwi Farms kiwifarms.st/members/shan…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.934 / 3ll6n7r7zws2c
Hugo on Twitter / X x.com/MoviePira_te x.com/NotEvenGoodTrol Bsky @hugonotderrick.bsky.social
2025-03-25 06:25:55.935 / 3ll6n7ra2w22c
Derrick Not A Fish on YouTube, ErikaFurudo as well, but less important, other than ErikaFurudo plagiarized me on a video by @redlianak.bsky.social who, after *kicking* Giancarlo Vanzzini out of her community (most likely on info *I* provided which I have no used to "doxx" him according to her) …
2025-03-25 06:25:55.936 / 3ll6n7rplyc2c
*allegedly* failed to recognize it *as* Giancarlo Vanzinni (linkedin below) in an allegedly leaked screenshot from her Discord server where she wonders who could have written the comment he left that was plagiarizing me…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.937 / 3ll6n7rwycs2c
"Stalker-chan" perhaps? Me? I don't know, but it *wasn't* Giancarlo Vanzzini, couldn't be, she kicked him out of her community and would know! Anyways, seems some are skeptical, so here's proof enough:
2025-03-25 06:25:55.938 / 3ll6n7rx66c2c
If this looks weird it's because I failed to screen capture this post before @hugonotderrick.bsky.social deleted it (a rarity), however, I shared it to my husband on Telegram where the preview loaded and this is the preview.
2025-03-25 06:25:55.939 / 3ll6n7sosz22c
Here is @hugonotderrick.bsky.social admitting he left the comment (he identifies it as "mine") that was plagiarizing what I wrote *way* back.
2025-03-25 06:25:55.940 / 3ll6n7st4pc2c
I quote myself to show. This isn't the only time he plagiarized me either, because he can't write his own shit, he gets AI to do it instead.
2025-03-25 06:25:55.941 / 3ll6n7tkxfk2c
Here he is on Facebook: www.facebook.com/giancarlo.va…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.942 / 3ll6n7tkyes2c
Here he is as melancholia4206 on steam: steamcommunity.com/id/melanchol…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.943 / 3ll6n7tkyet2c
BTW if you think that number isn't random, you'd be right. It's most likely referencing this: www.drugs.com/imprints/v-4…
Looks like he's swallowed a certain "medication for the mind" shall we say (that I have nothing to do with)…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.944 / 3ll6n7udy6l2c
and Heather4Ever2 on AO3 archiveofourown.org/users/Heathe…
2025-03-25 06:25:55.945 / 3ll6n7uqkjl2c
This is his best piece on there in my opinion, or actually, sorry, it's the worst: songofthecrickets.com
2025-03-25 06:25:55.946 / 3ll6n7uqlit2c
There's even more to this account, but it looks like either Giancarlo Vanzzini deleted all of his erikafurudo8784 comments (youtube.com/@erikafurudo8784), but I suspect @redlianak.bsky.social did.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.106 / 3ll6pl42u6l2c
Here it appears Giancarlo Vanzzini, by potentially linking erikafurudo8784 with Derrick Not A Fish stream 5 months ago, is tipping his hand in a mocking manner while he pees inside your house on SL. Classy Giancarlo.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.107 / 3ll6pl6d4ol2c
Beyond that, here's the comments I know of that have been deleted:
Somewhere around April 28th, 2020 Giancarlo Vanzinni as @erikafurudo8784 replied to @dragonwatter the following:
then some cognitive behavioral therapy targeting avoidant behavior would be something those people can look into.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.108 / 3ll6pl7y7vl2c
Somewhere around October 20th, 2020 between @dragonwatter and @Winterydee, Giancarlo as @erikafurudo8784 commented on this video with:
QAnon started on 4chan's /x/ board.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.109 / 3ll6plauec32c
Around July 7th, 2023 Giancarlo Vanzzini commented as @erikafurudo8784 the following:
Leave the kids alone
2025-03-25 07:08:10.110 / 3ll6plbtnbd2c
When @redlianak.bsky.social decided to blame the cancellation of Song of Sparklemuffin entirely on me, someone who had *nothing* to do with the project in terms of work (just had my name mentioned at the end Maus' bio), and more specifically my instability, unacceptable lack of impulse control, and…
2025-03-25 07:08:10.111 / 3ll6plcmk5d2c
the fact I cross moral boundaries upon which my husband @merrystarchild.bsky.social called her cruel for stopping being "nice" and calling me out. She's such a good person like that. Anyway, when that happened, …
2025-03-25 07:08:10.112 / 3ll6plcsgml2c
Giancarlo Vanzzini decided to trot out good ol' Ryukishi07 favorite @erikafurudo8784 and wrote:
You're not capable of deliberate harm, but, you are capable of doing things, intentional or not, that clearly 'harms' someone and then never owning it, …
2025-03-25 07:08:10.113 / 3ll6pld2led2c
but instead ending the relationship on that note because they're 'toxic'?
Which happens to be the plagiarism I was *actually* referencing when Giancarlo tipped his hand because I wrote it here:
2025-03-25 07:08:10.114 / 3ll6pldrzed2c
This would be around the time that pee video came out (but only after, I'm assuming, the speculation on Liana's part). Where did I *reference* the plagiarism that almost made Giancarlo tip his hand? (since he deleted it) Here!
2025-03-25 07:08:10.115 / 3ll6plds2dl2c
More recently around October 11, 2024 Giancarlo commented, as @erikafurudo8784 the following in a thread involving @redlianak.bsky.social disagreeing with @VagabondTE the following:
Yeah, it would have been so much classier if you just agreed with Liana like everyone else.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.116 / 3ll6plds2dm2c
Around November 13th, 2024 on this video Giancarlo Vanzzini, as @erikafurudo8784, plagiarized me as noted:
A fight response can justify temporary extraordinary behavior, but it doesn't justify, after the fact, continued denial, dismissal, impositions, …
2025-03-25 07:08:10.117 / 3ll6plf5qrm2c
refusals to acknowledge others' thoughts or feelings about your actions, lying, misrepresentations, or going on to use vulnerable individuals as shields by stomping on their boundaries and asking your audience to admire the tread since it's for a good cause.
ED: Note the stomping.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.118 / 3ll6plgdaxu2c
Around December 6th, 2024 Giancarlo Vanzzini commented as @erikafurudo8784 the following in reply to the video below:
The Hasan Piker thing was like 8 years ago and the only thing he did was make snarky comments while watching one of your videos. Get over yourself seriously
2025-03-25 07:08:10.119 / 3ll6plgdaxv2c
Given all of this, it's odd to *me* that @redlianak.bsky.social might think @erikafurudo8784 was me, 'cause the timeline would make no sense, so she must've meant @emilyschooley.bsky.social whom she pins all her "stalkers" on and a number of accounts.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.120 / 3ll6plhcixv2c
Talk about being against doxxing! I guess if you *don't* have proof, and you stop saying their name explicitly, it doesn't count?
That seems to be the criteria for a lot of @redlianak.bsky.social 's modus operandi.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.121 / 3ll6plhkpo52c
Nope, this one's Giancarlo, which, in the exact same fashion, I've been able to pin to him, but in my case, I have *all* the evidence before I did it.
That's right, there's *a lot* more than this. When I said I have everything, I meant it.
2025-03-25 07:08:10.122 / 3ll6plhql652c
I haven't met any threshold for harassment in any objective terms. I simply state my opinion about my life and my interactions with others on my timeline, which is a perfectly normal behavior and expectation on a speech platform built just for this.
2025-03-25 07:17:27.342 / 3ll6q3picyf2c
I do it in the same manner really as @ladydiabolique.bsky.social , @vividfaegarden.com , @zenaandpoppy.bsky.social , @galaxybunny.bsky.social , @wyles.bsky.social (who has unblocked me?), and company, only I make different choices.
2025-03-25 07:17:27.343 / 3ll6q3pna7n2c
I put my online drama on full display with a parade of evidence, links, and piercing judgment that would make @kodochara.bsky.social cry tears of joy. And yet somehow… somehow…
2025-03-25 07:17:27.344 / 3ll6q3pvnqn2c
and I'm absolutely not whatever a baeddelist is supposed to be. I'm not sure why I'm on this list then, nor why the people who subscribe to it think I should be on this list really, except that they are part of a personality cult that works to demonize people like me…
almost as if…
as if…
2025-03-25 07:17:27.345 / 3ll6q3q5lnn2c
What's the phrase I'm looking for?
2025-03-25 07:17:27.346 / 3ll6q3q5mmv2c
I did notice that you were on that list and how ridiculous that is as well. There was to be another @, @redlianak.bsky.social but that somehow got edited out without me noticing. The major appeal I’m making is the one I posted in this thread already as quoted below.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.484 / 3ll7qd5dm5k2j
That’s always been my appeal or point. I’ve stated it multiple times before this as well but I don’t expect you to have known that. I made it more specific in terms of content this time because I have come to believe people don’t take the assertion seriously since my timeline isn’t like theirs.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.485 / 3ll7qd5rods2j
I don’t focus on having an affirming “community,” positive things, humor, or whatever I’m supposed to focus on. But it *is* in various form or fashion at one time or another like the timelines of the individuals I’ve listed, including yours. That’s the only way I’m lumping you in with anyone else.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.486 / 3ll7qd5rqcc2j
I’ve continued to state the fact that not only do I use these platforms like anyone else might, but I have the right to do so like anyone else, in response to accusations, insinuations, and responses from @redlianak.bsky.social and @ladydiabolique.bsky.social suggesting otherwise.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.487 / 3ll7qd5ru7c2j
To them, any of our defenses, if I may, are inappropriate, unhinged, cross moral boundaries, harassment, stalking, lying, centers them as a plea for their attention or an adopted faux opposition only because of their rejection, …
2025-03-25 16:54:16.488 / 3ll7qd5ycb22j
and could even require legal sanctions such as restraining orders, all because they aren’t the ones doing it, as in, they aren’t defending us as an appeal to their own magnanimity.
That makes it inconvenient and dangerous so it must be discredited. In doing so they propose that what I post …
2025-03-25 16:54:16.489 / 3ll7qd5yf6s2j
is immoral, inappropriate, harassment, a product of lunacy, an unacceptable lack of impulse control, and shouldn’t be allowed.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.490 / 3ll7qd5yg622j
Yet, when Willy, for example, decides fascists should be tortured to death due to them regarding others as subhuman, and then immediately claims others he’s annoyed with are subhuman and should die, there seems scant a criticism that I’ve seen.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.491 / 3ll7qd5yi4k2j
No blocks, no lists… instead legitimate disagreement as if what they have to say is valuable, compared to my original abhorrent behavior.
2025-03-25 16:54:16.492 / 3ll7qd5yk322j
You’d also be remiss to not notice I wrote that I make different choices. I’m not appealing to anyone to gain their approval, and definitely not because I’m allowing myself to meet their standards or that I’m justified because I’m acting like them.
2025-03-25 16:58:16.583 / 3ll7qkccqvk2j
I’m not acting like them, I’m acting like me. I meet my standards, which are much higher than theirs.
2025-03-25 16:58:16.584 / 3ll7qkciaok2j
You make choices too, such as associating yourself with that group in the past and so on, so here we are. I’m glad you’re distancing yourself, but you’re still defending and justifying yourself against what you read into versus what I’ve said.
2025-03-25 16:58:16.585 / 3ll7qkcidmc2j
I find this thread to be quite indirect, and thus a touch confusing. I've done my best to address what seems to be the… complaint, I think? I think I'm missing something.
2025-03-26 01:24:05.128 / 3llamsqwuu22x
Specifically, I don't understand why you are explaining to me how Zena's list is constructed or how it operates. Secondly, in what context would my appeal to sensibilities do nothing? What are they supposed to be doing?
2025-03-26 01:24:05.129 / 3llamsr4ofk2x
Wow.
There is so much self-unawareness here that it's mind-boggling what's being done in such an obvious manner.
It deserves another wow.
But that won't stop me from pointing all of it out because this is peak everything about *my* situation with *Poppy* and *Liana.*
2025-03-26 06:20:08.967 / 3llb5e5u7us2x
I'm only addressing you for now, Saige, and reference Audrey's questions in relation to you, because Audrey has lost any chance of me responding to her by suggesting the confusion of this thread is on *me* because I'm "seemingly manic."
2025-03-26 06:20:08.968 / 3llb5e625dc2x
[ED: I've responded to further developments below that hadn't happened yet.]
2025-03-26 06:20:08.969 / 3llb5eabbp22x
That's gonna be an extremely hard disagree on my end. In fact, I disagree with everything that's been written here in response to *my* thread about *my* situation.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.970 / 3llb5eabbp32x
I suspected this indirectness would turn into this, the real complaint, because I'm not seemingly what I've been suggested so far: someone who doesn't understand how the list works and is being ineffective and "manic."
2025-03-26 06:20:08.971 / 3llb5eabdnl2x
Real nice *almost* stepping up to the symptom announcements Poppy herself made about me in the inciting incident to this entire exchange, but… not *quite* there.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.972 / 3llb5ebergt2x
And that's the main thrust of what I'm going to point out: you write "…it's possible to do that without the implication that the way I engage online is similar to Poppy," but the implication is not only one I didn't make intentionally (and explained), but one that now doesn't need to be made.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.973 / 3llb5ebeuel2x
It's obvious you engage online in exactly the same way Poppy does, which is (I'm guessing) probably how you ended up in The Foundation (?) in the first place.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.974 / 3llb5ebxvql2x
If you care enough past this point, I'll explain in my now signature detail, which, I can only anticipate at this point will be characterized negatively in some decidedly non-mental-health-stigma-perpetuating manner.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.975 / 3llb5ebxvqm2x
Audrey asks, presumably now on your behalf, why I included you in the grouping of people who abused you and are currently harassing you. I already said why: "I made it more specific in terms of content this time because I have come to believe people don't …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.976 / 3llb5ebxvqn2x
take the assertion [that I'm like everybody else] seriously since my timeline isn't like theirs. … But it *is* in various form or fashion at one time or another like the timelines of the individuals I've listed, including yours. That's the only way I'm lumping you in with anyone else."
2025-03-26 06:20:08.977 / 3llb5ebxvqo2x
So, I've already answered that question. It's only "confusing" because you didn't like that answer and ask again why I did that now in light of what I'm attempting to accomplish.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.978 / 3llb5ebxwpw2x
Yet, I notice that Audrey did not take any time to answer my questions, specifically, "what are they supposed to be doing?"
Instead, it's blasted out there as this big unknown. No. You had an idea of what I was "trying to accomplish" and …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.979 / 3llb5ebxwpx2x
not only did Audrey (under)state it through context, but took it upon herself to tell me that "there's nothing [it] will do." I asked, again, "what [is it] supposed to be doing?" and didn't get an answer.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.980 / 3llb5ebxwpy2x
I need not tell you or Audrey what I'm trying to accomplish because it *doesn't concern you,* but I can tell you that's not it.
Instead, the confusion is on *me* and my "seemingly manic" actions, and you guys have *no idea!* You have no idea because, in my opinion, …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.981 / 3llb5ebxwpz2x
you can't imagine *not* being the main character (as you so aptly put it) when it comes to *other people's problems* like *mine* much like the big bad abuser Poppy.
In my judgment alone, I reckon you can't imagine *not* trying to appeal to these people for something, …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.982 / 3llb5ebxwq22x
some kind of safety or validation, so, of course, *that's* what I'm doing somehow much like, well, Poppy, *and Liana* has continued to assert.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.983 / 3llb5ebxwq32x
Don't forget Mrs. Kerzner, but you will because she's not in *your* life and not *your* problem, but I haven't because, surprise, she is in *my* life and is *my* problem.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.984 / 3llb5ebxwq42x
You guys absolutely floor me as you *insert yourselves* into *my* issues, *my* problems, and *my* defenses or 'takes,' as if they're solely about you.
They're not, they're about *me* ffs.
I'm not here to take down Poppy as some big savior of anyone. I'm not a troll.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.985 / 3llb5ebxxpe2x
I'm not looking for accolades here. I'm not defending anyone else. I'm not inserting myself into anything. I only ever respond to what involves me in this situation, like I did with Mrs. Kerzner before she threw me under the bus. Any reply I made to any of her detractors was …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.986 / 3llb5ebxxpf2x
my own personal opinion, my own personal take, and even my own personal grievance over something they said about me. It was never in direct defense of Mrs. Kerzner. I was never her "lapdog" as, presumably, "Stalker-chan" put it.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.987 / 3llb5ebxxpg2x
This self-insertion (and then framing yourself as a victim) isn't unlike Poppy, or more recently Mrs. Kerzner when she decided to not only denounce my "doxxing" of a *Kiwi Farmer* (she herself verified) who's been *harassing* me, I venture to say, because …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.988 / 3llb5ebxxph2x
I posted his public online profiles (that's it), but then decided to continue to *insert herself* into *my* victimization and struggle by magnanimously defending me (that was what I was referencing) against the trolls "torturing" me.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.989 / 3llb5ebxxpi2x
She had *just* made a video about "emasculation" where she stated that she had to (paraphrased) "learn the hard way that defending a man or fighting their battles was embarrassing and/or emasculating, unlike girl world."
2025-03-26 06:20:08.990 / 3llb5ebxxpj2x
So, my conclusion is that she was purposefully emasculating me while looking good in the process.
The truth isn't what she says though, just like how my husband has been trying to point out to you while you self-destruct [ED: And by appearances, you definitely self-destructed for some reason] by …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.991 / 3llb5ebxxpk2x
aggressively centering your own victimhood to the exclusion of everyone else, but especially me. I really don't understand why, but I'm not one to hypothesize on the ways of total irrationality and dysfunction. That's presumably Poppy's department.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.992 / 3llb5ebxyos2x
The truth she fails to even assume she might be wrong about is that I'm *not* being tortured (now) by *my* estimations. I'm doing fine! Better even! Like you… allegedly.
And now, here you (and your girlfriend) are doing the same type of shit and worse. …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.993 / 3llb5ebxyot2x
Everything you've said *drips* with guilt-tripping, and, I don't know if you've followed any of this (probably not, it's not about you) but I don't do guilt.
"I just don't."
I won't respond to that crap, nor be shamed by it, but boy did you really try.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.994 / 3llb5ebxyou2x
With all of that as a backdrop, I'll lay it out further.
Firstly, you *don't* know every little thing Poppy's (alleged) actions have done to me or my life, nor the influence I have reason to believe she has exerted …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.995 / 3llb5ed6i542x
on a *very* important friendship of me and my husband's with @redlianak.bsky.social , and it shows.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.996 / 3llb5ed6i552x
Here's a reality check you desperately need:
Your Poppy-like dismissals reek of self-importance and cry-bullying. You reduce the months of ostracism, the sleeplesss anxiety-ridden panic-attack week of late September, all the times I've cried over this, the effects it's had on …
2025-03-26 06:20:08.997 / 3llb5edgvo52x
how I view my responsibility to my husband… and the public (but only by suggestions out of kindness) smear campaign against me, my stability, my character, my relationships, my values, and my past enacted against me to a "Twitter beef."
It's just a "Twitter beef" that I'm blowing out of proportion.
2025-03-26 06:20:08.998 / 3llb5edgvo62x
That sounds awfully familiar. In fact, it was so innocuous that nobody made an entire video about it and cancelled a project over it. Nope.
Really?
You're going to decide that?
2025-03-26 06:20:08.999 / 3llb5edgvo72x
It *was* a Twitter beef that Poppy blew *way* out of proportion in her final mental health stigmatizing blast, and decided to, via Mrs. Kerzner I believe, essentially punish me for it with lies. Who *was* the professional PR consultant Mrs. Kerzner had used? Hmmm?
2025-03-26 06:20:09.000 / 3llb5eembxh2x
[ED: The reader will discover, later in this thread, that Saige and Audrey go by the same exact playbook.]
This was all due to me having the audacity to not play into Poppy's manipulative guilt-trip of "I set a boundary and now you've crossed it" when *she came back* just to point that out.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.001 / 3llb5eembxi2x
Because that was the goal, to render me transphobic for asking her an, apparently, uncomfortable question and not taking her shit. Or is she miraculously all good in that exchange? Is there nuance I absolutely must abide by? Shades of gray?
You love that shit, so you tell me.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.002 / 3llb5eembxj2x
This was picked up and railed on by Mrs. Kerzner, her friend, defender, and cohort, to blast me to pieces socially, blaming me for something I wasn't responsible for. She risks nothing. I risk being locked up.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.003 / 3llb5eembxk2x
But it's just a Twitter beef, and can't possibly compare to all the horrific abuse any of you and your friends, who pathologically (in my estimation) *need* to be the main characters regarding Poppy in *all* situations, lest someone *else* be pitied on KF or Tumblr or YouTube or some bullshit.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.004 / 3llb5eembxl2x
I *am* an "actual victim" of Poppy's by *my* judgment on *my* situation that involved *me* and Poppy, and *just me and Poppy and later Mrs. Kerzner,* not you. I don't remember you being around or having fuck all to do with it, but, you know, big surprise on that one.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.005 / 3llb5eembxm2x
I'm just not a victim you approve of for a number of reasons. I'm guessing one is that I didn't properly apologize for @ing you (I'm guessing) even though you didn't ask for one. You're not going to get one.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.006 / 3llb5eemcwu2x
This is gatekeeping being able to call yourself a victim of abuse. Later, you, or your body, state to Audrey that I've "set back" abuse victims 15 years. No. Gatekeeping victimhood is what abuse victims had to break free from. I'm not the one setting anything back here.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.007 / 3llb5eemfum2x
I am making *no statement* nor is one implied by anything I've said about *your* victimhood, your suffering, and your justifications. I stated exactly what this had to do with you, and you didn't like it. I could tell. …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.008 / 3llb5effcqm2x
Now I know why and I don't care. Why should I? Just because *I* might be a victim doesn't mean you're less of a victim. Get a grip.
*You* are making *you* the main character in *my story.*
It is, to use your guys' language, "exhausting."
2025-03-26 06:20:09.009 / 3llb5effcqn2x
*You* did this, it is *not* the other way around. Did you forget that this was in response to *my* thread? That *I* wrote about *my* situation with *my* point of view? Is that really that impossible for you to wrap your head around that …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.010 / 3llb5effcqo2x
someone else might have a life and relationship with Poppy in some way outside of all the rest of you? Damn, I'm impressed, that kool-aid must've gone hard.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.011 / 3llb5effdpw2x
Yes, it's quite believable and reasonable to assert that Poppy has *never* harmed *anyone* in *any way* as much as she has harmed you guys, whoever you are, so we should just what, shut the fuck up? Seriously?
2025-03-26 06:20:09.012 / 3llb5effdpx2x
I'm sorry, but wut?
You don't have a say here.
You don't control my life or my narrative or my viewpoint or my timeline or my… you know what, I already *said this to Poppy* so I should *not* be repeating it to you since you know *everything* about Poppy and I's situation.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.013 / 3llb5effdpy2x
I *never made the comparison* between my situation and your situation. Hello? I've never made a comment or stated a clear opinion on whether Poppy suffered anything she said, or whether you suffered anything you said, or any of that.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.014 / 3llb5effdpz2x
I don't care. I care about *my* situation and *my* grievances that *you* are very obviously trying to take over with some fucking main character syndrome passive-aggressive bullshit.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.015 / 3llb5effdq22x
How dare you tell me I'm not an "actual victim." Especially because you are in pain. Do you hear yourself? Are you really saying that as an ally of… who knows? You're in pain so mine doesn't count. I'm not important enough, nobody knows who I am.
Does anyone really know who you are?
2025-03-26 06:20:09.016 / 3llb5effepc2x
How dare you accuse my husband of talking down to you for simply telling you that you are making a lot of assumptions and overstepping your knowledge. How dare you suggest I'm just suffering from "meangirling" like it's nothing.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.017 / 3llb5effepd2x
It's nothing *to you,* but not *to me.* You don't risk anything in *my* situation. I do.
How dare you suggest we are attempting to "speak over victims," by making our own defenses and writing our own stories and dealing with our *own* situations (not yours) as we see fit.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.018 / 3llb5effepe2x
Let me make it very very clear: you, Audrey, Willy, NightWyld, Noeh, Milena, Zena, and whoever else are *not* the main characters in *my* life, nor do I owe you *anything* at all.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.019 / 3llb5effepf2x
I do not owe *anybody* the courtesy of deferral in *my story,* nor do I owe you the courtesy of mentioning your suffering above mine.
I don't owe my timeline or my writing *to you.* I do not need to curb my expressions and my problems, if I choose to act on them, for anyone or anything.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.020 / 3llb5efffon2x
Get over yourself. In the words of Mrs. Kerzner herself, "I matter too."
I know that, it seems to me, in this bizarro little cult-like world you've all constructed I only exist to victimize others and be some …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.021 / 3llb5efffoo2x
big giant horrible unstable-as-fuck bad guy lacking any interests, feelings, will, or safety of my own, but that's not the reality.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.022 / 3llb5effgnw2x
Stop acting like that's the reality and actually fucking *listen* to someone else with half a brain for two seconds to realize, as Mrs. Kerzner said to me, "you're not the only person that exists."
2025-03-26 06:20:09.023 / 3llb5effgnx2x
I don't care if the mean posts about me will never compare to what you went through. *I never said they did.* YOU SAID THEY DIDN'T ANYWAY. Why? To guilt-trip and bash me, much like Poppy, and much like Mrs. Kerzner.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.024 / 3llb5effgny2x
We're not talking over you. *You* made us into talking over you. It seems like it's because we dared not just shut up in awe of your suffering. That's a good look.
I did *not* insert myself into "the situation," I am talking about my *own* situation.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.025 / 3llb5effgnz2x
I don't care nor need to take on, nor have any duty to take on any of you guys' stories or suffering. I don't care, you can deal with that yourself. I don't want to even touch it. Why would I do that?
2025-03-26 06:20:09.026 / 3llb5effgo22x
I have my *own situation* that I'm dealing with. *Not yours.* Please understand this. I implore you to internalize it. I have my *own life* and my *own situation* that I'm dealing with, and it's *not yours.* It just happens to involve the same person.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.027 / 3llb5effgo32x
No one flattened shit into being equal, except *you.* No one said they were equal except *you.* No one was speaking of severity until *you* came along. This is ALL on *you.*
2025-03-26 06:20:09.028 / 3llb5effgo42x
No one was confused until you decided that you needed to make it absolutely clear that you don't behave at all like Poppy, when now, it's really obvious to anyone with any sense that, yes, you do. You really do.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.029 / 3llb5effgo52x
You're doing it to me. You got your girlfriend to do it to me. It's dismissal, dismissal, dismissal.
No one's heard of me, no one cares about me, no one has anything to do with me, etc.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.030 / 3llb5effgo62x
Except that's not true.
I ended up on Poppy's thread as a "character" for a couple reasons:
1) because of @redlianak.bsky.social 's former community member *inserting me* (not me) into Poppy's thread for no real reason of relevancy and
2025-03-26 06:20:09.031 / 3llb5effhng2x
2) let's not forget, *I argued with Poppy over some little question and she flipped the fuck out, blasted me, I freaked out like she'd hoped I'd do with my BPD (I'm guessing), and then decided to somehow try to ruin my life by …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.032 / 3llb5efpa5g2x
most likely (I'm guessing) giving Mrs. Kerzner a reason to fuck me over.* Suicide maybe? I don't know. That's what I can guess from "reasonable contributions to a dangerous situation."
2025-03-26 06:20:09.033 / 3llb5efpa5h2x
You are seriously walking into *my* thread, inserting *yourself* into *my life* and *my situation* just to shit all over it because I'm not making *you* and *your suffering* the most important thing and all I'll ever talk about.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.034 / 3llb5efpa5i2x
I must "curb" my personal grievances in support of… what? What exactly are you doing this for? Poppy? It seems like you're doing this for Poppy.
To that, I can only say, she's not going to ever treat you differently Saige. Whatever you got was it. Internalize that, please, for your own sake.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.035 / 3llb5efpb4q2x
tl;dr
*You* made it about your suffering. *You* compared it. *You* made it a pissing contest. *You* were complaining I suggested you act like Poppy (which I wasn't, but you do!).
2025-03-26 06:20:09.036 / 3llb5efpb4r2x
*You* brought on all of this bullshit you're now acting like a victim of to shame me for some bizarre reason. I'm not going to be shamed. I _NEVER_ stated anything about you or your situation like what *you've* come up with to be a victim of.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.037 / 3llb5efpb4s2x
All this behavior me and my husband are allegedly engaging in to victimize you, talk over you, etc. is all stuff *you* invented as you hijacked the entire thread about *me.*
2025-03-26 06:20:09.038 / 3llb5efpb4t2x
You act *exactly* like Poppy so fuck off with all this guilt-laden passive-aggressive super dismissive bullshit. I have *no interest* in contributing to some collective narrative about Poppy, mostly because anyone doing that is a completely dysfunctional moron, to be frank.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.039 / 3llb5efpb4u2x
They see this as an opportunity to gain attention and be relevant, like Giancarlo Vanzzini regarded me. They've gathered around a powerful personality and decided to leech off of their suffering for their own gain, and the center of attention allows them to do it. Encourages it even.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.040 / 3llb5efpfz42x
It's sad. All I see this as is heartbreak. I'm telling *my story* about *my situation* and fighting *my battles* and making *my defenses* about *me* in the way *I* see fit for *my* life.
Not yours.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.041 / 3llb5egkqz42x
I know where I end and you begin. I understand boundaries just fine. I know what I'm doing. I'm perfectly aware of how Zena's list works (really?), I'm not that stupid. Doesn't mean it's not presented the way it is.
You don't.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.042 / 3llb5egkqz52x
When people insert themselves into my life and my situation in an attempt to control it somehow or shame me into silence it annoys me.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.043 / 3llb5egkryf2x
It has become very clear to me in this exchange that my suspicions are proven correct. I have felt / believed that @ladydiabolique.bsky.social , with @redlianak.bsky.social , have successfully pulled off a campaign to make me only exist as letters on a screen, not as a person behind it.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.044 / 3llb5egkryg2x
I might as well not even exist but as a name people can be a victim of, even through invention. Now it's a thing you can all collect to make yourselves important to each other I guess.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.045 / 3llb5egsxpg2x
I see now that, in the time it took me to write this, you've posted more as someone else, Audrey posted more than blocked us, and you, being not you, muted me.
Lo and behold, right on cue (but what the fuck do I know?) it's straight-line Poppy / Liana bullshit.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.046 / 3llb5egsxph2x
My mental health struggle is now being 'taken out' on Saige (when I haven't even posted a further response) somehow because I mentioned her. I'm not going to apologize for associating Saige with her abusers in the way *I clearly stated,* and now …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.047 / 3llb5egsyop2x
I'm not going to apologize for associating Saige with her abusers in the way Saige meant, or Audrey because it's true. Good job.
I'm not 'taking out' my mental health struggles on anyone. What does that even mean? My writing is not irrational. Yours is. Very much so.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.048 / 3llb5egt3mh2x
This is a straight-up variation of, "You're splitting. Stop." Who the fuck are you, Audrey, to state that about me?
Apparently, you are your girlfriend's abuser, Poppy, or a close facsimile of her.
Saige, I would like you to *really* think about this. Let it sink in for a long time.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.049 / 3llb5ehws6x2x
She is repeating a fictional tale woven about me concerning my mental health by none other than @redlianak.bsky.social
She is wrong though. Very very wrong. But apparently effective, which shows you *don't* know what you think you know. Mrs. Kerzner is plain wrong and has misrepresented me.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.050 / 3llb5einlop2x
I don't do the DID stuff when I have no goodwill reason to do so, and you've given me none. I mean that, you do you, but I just don't do it, I don't have the patience or understanding. I'm not arguing it doesn't exist or that one isn't suffering from it.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.051 / 3llb5eitoyp2x
But I have one relationship with one body, that's *my* boundary I can enforce, so I'm going to address Cerise as herself once: I have not "set abuse victims back 15 years" and Saige can fight her own battles thank you, I want nothing to do with you ever again. Goodbye.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.052 / 3llb5eitoyq2x
This is a nice little ploy you've guys got set up that's straight out of Poppy-town: invent some bizarro terrible horrible thing I was never saying or doing and you can come out looking like victims.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.053 / 3llb5eitoyr2x
Problem is, I never did any of those things.
You plain hijacked the thread, invented these accusations out of thin air by accusing me and my husband of doing them without backing it up (at least I quoted Poppy in my argument) and now you're my victims.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.054 / 3llb5eitpxz2x
All I ever did was list Saige's handle next to other people's handles because they're all associated in the way they talk about their own problems online, like me. I explained this, clearly and in detail, and was ignored because …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.055 / 3llb5eitpy22x
it doesn't fit the psychoconsumerist build-an-abuser framework you need to use.
I *never* talked over a victim, nor did my husband.
You did!
2025-03-26 06:20:09.056 / 3llb5eitpy32x
We *never* spoke for you, about you, nor even interpreted what you've said about the situation, 'cause we don't care. I *never* compared my situation to anyone else's. I *never* said anyone was or wasn't a victim, you did. I *never* inserted myself into someone else's situation, you did. And so on…
2025-03-26 06:20:09.057 / 3llb5eitpy42x
And this?
' "victimhood is victimhood" is the type of shit white men say when a feminist says something mean about men in a joke about patriarchy ' is peak peak peak dismissive white lesbian feminist bullshit the likes of which Poppy, your fucking abuser, would be proud.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.058 / 3llb5eitrwm2x
Better than what, exactly?
2025-03-26 06:20:09.059 / 3llb5ejfffu2x
And no, before you even demand it, I won't apologize for saying that either. Not now. Don't want that association or comparison? *Then you or your girlfriend should not act like Poppy!*
2025-03-26 06:20:09.060 / 3llb5ejfgf42x
So apparently, I guess, another one of my suspicions has been correct. I *can't* actually be a victim at all, in any of this, because of some quality of my nature. I've already spoken on this, wondering what it is. I haven't quite figured it out. Please tell me what it is, because I'm dying to know.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.061 / 3llb5ejfgf52x
Isn't it handy when the abuser, here this time it's you I suppose, given the thresholds of this shit, is able to just whisk away and declare their victims not "actually victims"?
It's very handy. It's something victims have been trying to break free from.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.062 / 3llb5ejfgf62x
It's also very Poppy, especially the part where you accuse me of doing what you're literally doing. That makes you the superior liberal / leftist ally and me well, shit, despite the fact that I (and my husband) have never said anything remotely close to that
2025-03-26 06:20:09.063 / 3llb5ejfgf72x
I'm going to address Cerise here as Saige, because, like I said, I just don't have the patience and understanding in this context, you've given me *zero* reasons to care. I don't want to talk to Cerise, they will be utterly ignored from now on.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.064 / 3llb5ejfgfa2x
So future DID sufferers beware, shit all over me and you're going to get the same treatment (even though I know my warnings are *never* heeded and when they aren't it's *my* fault because… that pesky quality of my nature thing).
2025-03-26 06:20:09.065 / 3llb5ejfgfb2x
Saige, your body wrote, "You came into a conversation that wasn't about you to talk over the person that has suffered arguably some of the most direct harm from Poppy in this entire situation over …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.066 / 3llb5ejfjcz2x
a person that is at most a side character in all of this and are now making vague claims to victimhood in order to justify it … this kind of shit literally gives her ammunition to dismiss everyone else's stories. We know quite a bit more than you think we do, …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.067 / 3llb5ek6j4r2x
so until you give me a reason to give a shit about your opinion of the situation, sit down."
Saige, please, stop with the bullshit (and I don't mean DID). Just stop. It's an incredibly cringe-worthy performance and so so so wrong. And yeah, I mean Saige. Saige is not unaccountable for Cerise.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.068 / 3llb5ek6j4s2x
1) he didn't come into a conversation that wasn't about him. *MY* thread involves *MY HUSBAND.* I'd drop an invective here but, it's beyond words.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.069 / 3llb5ek6j4t2x
2) I don't give a shit how much Saige has suffered in comparison to anyone, especially me. I'm sorry it happened, it's sad, but, also, *not my freakin' problem* nor is it *relevant* to *my life and my story* that is most decidedly *not yours.*
2025-03-26 06:20:09.070 / 3llb5ek6j4u2x
3) I don't give two fucks if I'm a "side character," *to you* and whatever Internet-brained friends you have. I don't give a shit. I care about *my life* and *my situation,* defending *myself,* and pursuing *my interests* and *my goals,* not yours, and not anyone else's.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.071 / 3llb5ek6k442x
4) @merrystarchild.bsky.social is most *definitely* not trying to justify shit to you Saige, there is no need. We don't play these stupid games. We don't do guilt. And we *don't* take orders from fuck all of anyone. …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.072 / 3llb5ek6k452x
You, and your disorder, can think of us whatever the fuck you want, we have nothing to offer you in terms of justifications because there is absolutely no need. We don't care. We don't *need* to be victims, but *you clearly do.*
In fact, you seem rather proud of it, which is really scary.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.073 / 3llb5ekgmvf2x
5) I also don't care about what effect my actions will have on the rest of Poppy's victims, especially the way you have acted towards me Saige. I don't care about your judgment of my situation, the value it poses to you or anyone else, or what it says about fuck all of anything. …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.074 / 3llb5ekgmvg2x
I don't care. I don't even think about it. I don't give a shit. No one in this has given me *any* reason to give a shit except shame and guilt (which doesn't work and will never work). I only care about pursuing my goals and my interests in this in the way that I believe to be moral. That's it.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.075 / 3llb5ekgmvh2x
6) You don't know shit. You know whatever Poppy told you, whatever Mrs. Kerzner told you, and well, isn't one of them a big bad awful abuser? Does that make any sense? …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.076 / 3llb5ekgmvi2x
You've *never* talked to me or anyone close to me. You know nothing, as evidenced by my very eloquent and detailed "reality check" I've given you. Full stop.
*insert a hazbin hotel meme here in your mind. I won't because I'm not a 14-year-old girl on LiveJournal in a 43-year-old woman's body.*
2025-03-26 06:20:09.077 / 3llb5ekgnuq2x
PS: Reminder to everyone. This was *MY* thread on *MY* timeline. I did *not* seek this out. I did *not* go out of my way to engage in any of this. I can tag anyone I want in any way I want and if they don't like it or my response they can block me. Simple.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.078 / 3llb5ekgnur2x
To use their language, "You can do that without turning yourself into a victim of some invented abuse of mine." Saige and Audrey pursued this to the bitter end, making up all sorts of shit in their minds and throwing it onto me and my husband.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.079 / 3llb5ekgnus2x
It amounted to, "You're not actually victims because you aren't convincing, shut up for the sake of the rest of us," and I do not agree, as expected.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.080 / 3llb5ekgnut2x
I don't care either. I am not the abuser here, nor am I inflicting my 'mental health struggles' onto fuck all of anyone. If you agree with what Saige and Audrey have decided to say here, then, good for you, but, based on what?
Seriously.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.081 / 3llb5ekgnuu2x
We never once said a single thing they've made up to be mad about.
I did *not* want this conversation to even happen, nor did I expect it to happen. People respond however they like, not my problem. I stayed in my own lane, on my own timeline, doing my own thing, and yet, here we are.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.082 / 3llb5ekgnuv2x
Saige, having been in the mental health system for 23 years, and being hospitalized 17 times (please, please don't turn this into a pissing contest too) my laymen's patient opinion and unsought advice is this:
2025-03-26 06:20:09.083 / 3llb5ekgou52x
you clearly have a deep running problem and have learned and adapted some extremely maladaptive coping behaviors and defenses that your current girlfriend is only encouraging. This whole approach was batshit insane, even on my terms. …
2025-03-26 06:20:09.084 / 3llb5ekgou62x
It was a clusterfuck of total insanity and a frightening way to assert yourself in complaint that accomplished the opposite of what you wanted. Total opposite.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.085 / 3llb5ekgou72x
And before that gets jumped on, no, that doesn't mean I should've known and treated you differently. Why? Who's done that for me here in *my* entire situation? And who should?
I respect you enough to treat you like any other sane person who'd say something like this. I know it's hard.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.086 / 3llb5ekgoua2x
But that *is* respect. That is a kindness. I want you to suffer the consequences you would suffer if you weren't disturbed so that you can work towards recovery. I don't want nor should I treat you like a "bad crazy" person.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.087 / 3llb5ekgoub2x
I know no one does this for me out of convenience, which is why I choose to do it to others. I know what it's like, and if you *want* that kind of treatment, you're in big trouble.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.088 / 3llb5ekgouc2x
Pease seek help and get as far away as you can from these people. They aren't making you special, or important, and your trauma isn't either. It's not something to be proud of or protect or gatekeep.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.089 / 3llb5ekgptk2x
I've been there. It doesn't work. It won't bloom into anything. Why do you think I've been on layaway for 15 years? Whatever Mrs. Kerzner has told anyone is *not* reality.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.090 / 3llb5ekgptl2x
Get a grip. Find your own value. Stop filling it in with bullshit in such a way that you have to make sure no one else takes it from you. Please, help yourself.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.091 / 3llb5ekgptm2x
Audrey is not helping you, she's making things worse if her behavior is any indicator. She acted *exactly like Poppy* towards me.
Remember that.
2025-03-26 06:20:09.092 / 3llb5ekgptn2x
Welp, in all the time that took, Saige has now blocked me as well.
Ah well.
2025-03-26 06:25:28.493 / 3llb5noldz22o
The truth hurts in the most amazing ways. I love what unbiased reality presents and I love discovering the truth of it. Any action I do directed towards others beyond pursuing my own justice is to help people, but many people don't want to face reality. It's too painful, and, sometimes I'm wrong.
2025-03-26 06:28:19.998 / 3llb5ss5bec2o
That's how it goes. As my first therapist said to me, "You can't fix stupid."
2025-03-26 06:28:19.999 / 3llb5sscak22o
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